I know I haven't blogged in a really long time, but I was trying to adjust to the new idea of embracing change, let me tell you one thing It was one of the hardest things I've ever done but am glad cause even though I haven't fully recovered but am doing "MUCH" better! I was shocked of how that bad feeling of the fear of non acceptance is slowly dissolving away, see the truth is I entered through the phase of change with a blocked heart, mind and soul it felt like I was made of stone I hated me being like that. Advice: where ever you're gonna go in life people who don't know you are going to judge you and in the environment where I live in I was a complete outsider, my views about the world was from a different prespective from theirs! It felt like I was from a different galaxy!
I met someone wise along the way well they didn't pretend to be wise, on the contrary she was that type of person that you keep promising yourself you would end up like every time your ideas were shutdown because you were from the young generation that you weren't old enough to speak up your mind, She listened and she listened carefully she believed that the youth are the hope for the new generation, I told her how I felt, she smiled and said something I won't forget she said " Bayan, open your heart" just these few words nothing more, but it hit me I've been so ignorant I did the same stupid mistake that is the source of world wars, dysfunctional families, and lack of mercy in people's hearts have you ever stopped and wondered why things get so complicated? why don't they ever work out? Its simple! People never "Listen" I'm not talking about simply keeping your ears open and hearing I am talking about actually listening to every word, sinking it into your brain and most importantly understanding where this is all coming from, walk a virtual mile in the other persons shoes….
feel their pain, understand where these words are coming from...
So I woke up the next morning with a new attitude, with a heartfelt smile and an open heart and I realized I've been missing out on a lot, I met great people! And spent the rest of the days laughing. Change is inevitable it's growing under my skin , It's you that choose's to make the process a nightmare or an unforgettable beautiful memory, It's my little world and I control the settings! So happy mood ON!
